this little light of mine…

April 22, 2008

my old friend the light

This is my kitchen candle…if I have ever told you I would light a candle for you, this is the one. I stick little papers in the beads, they hold the prayers I sometimes can’t pray. To be honest, I couldn’t pray for a long time but I needed something. This candle has been a true friend, it has held the space for the feelings in my heart, the pain of others, the fear of the unknown, the truth, the hope that all will be well.

I lit it for a dear friend several weeks ago, I knew it was the last time. The wick went to the very end, it burnt out just a few minutes after she called to tell me everything was okay. I haven’t had the heart to replace it. It’s all so silly really, it’s just a candle but it saw my soul through many late nights and early mornings.

I don’t ever write about my kindness stories on this blog. I often feel they aren’t mine to tell. I don’t really do that much except hold a little space for sadness, hope, strength or just be in a moment. or maybe just light a candle…

It has been quiet lately in my work, I have been pulling inward to my own soul tending. Dear ones around me have noticed and dropped all sorts of loveliness on my door while I hibernate. It seems I have finally found the surface and shortly after I got a call this week in a timing that only the universe could know. This call definitely required a candle burning…it wasn’t nearly as hard as I had anticipated to say goodbye and let a new light shine.

Jorge and I have this little game, I keep lighting candles and he blows them out behind me as I would have them burning all night and when we are gone. I think he would prefer I don’t burn the house down. When I went to bed last night, he blew out the kitchen candle for me but I was so relieved to find the altar candle I had lit on the sly still burning this morning. This prayer just needed to burn through the night…this story,  well, we need a lot of candles burning. If the light calls to you like it does me, can you light one tonight?

the altar candle still burning…

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3 Responses to “this little light of mine…”

  1. melanie Says:

    i stumbled over here from Kelley’s blog and I could be more tickled. You have such a positive and affirming site.

    Todays comment really touched me because I burn candles too for reflection and prayers. I don’t have a “kindness hubby” (being single and all) so my candles don’t last long since they burn for hours at a time! 🙂

    Oh well I just get more! Thanks for bringing a bit of light to my day

  2. Amy Says:

    consider one lit. think I’ll go do it now…

  3. Nan Says:

    Let it shine
    Let it shine
    Let it shine


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