the school of hard knocks…
January 26, 2011
I’ve been attending the school of hard knocks faithfully lately. I’m trying not to get all Annie dramatic but I have been singing “the sun will come out….” in my head on occasion. There have been lots of experiences in the business/corporate world where wearing your heart on your sleeve and seeking connection ruthlessly are not exactly recommended. I feel like I am in a completely different country and fully aware I am a tourist.
The heart and truth of kindness are the same, but I am discovering some times kindness calls for a certain strength, it is one I am very unfamiliar with. It isn’t gentle or tender, it’s honest and direct…. all new for my soul, and new for the professional part of me. I’ve been stumbling around, picking myself apart to death, trying a million different ways to avoid it, trying to figure out where I went wrong with the old ways, but truth is, it’s kind of how this thing goes.
Every time I think I’ve got it locked down, something new is revealed to me. The frames of kindness have no end and it isn’t always easy. The dark side of kindness, the places that show us where we have been unkind to each other, or to ourselves are often the most difficult to look at, but also so close to the deepest part of ourselves that are calling for healing, courage, redemption… love.
When we stand there, we can begin to see it, in ways we never imagined, opening doors we never knew were there.