the beauty of now…
March 8, 2012
it snowed…I watched it fall
women and men united found themselves in a moment and held tight together for change on some steps…I learned a different kind of strength
a whole new gaggle of neighborhood kids appeared at my door, bringing along a few more each day…I realized kids need to do a whole lot of nothin’/hanging out and just talking to feel supported and loved
opportunity can paralyze you…the “what do you think is gonna happen?” question is my worst enemy, but following the joy and call of your heart will always move you forward
I got stuck, very stuck…and being stuck gives you time to think about how you got there, so maybe even that is good
I held twin boys…and marveled at the beauty and tender heart of their mama.
I finally started writing notes/messages to strangers, only because I didn’t have anything for you until now…but I do.
my mother superiors (those mothers in my life, both the one of my origin and those gifted to me by the universe) find me every time I think no one knows…they rise
kindness can be so audacious, that’s exactly where I want to be…in the place where it feels impossible, even if it’s scary and unknown, because that is exactly where the greatest magic lies
it all matters…all of it…nothing is wasted…this is the beauty of now.
feel free tell me your beauty of now in the comments…even the gritty parts are good.
Kindnessgirl 
March 8, 2012 at 10:50 am
Man did I need to read this right now. Especially “kindness can be so audacious, that’s exactly where I want to be…in the place where it feels impossible, even if it’s scary and unknown, because that is exactly where the greatest magic lies.” I have been feeling the struggles of kindness this morning in the midst of a nasty comment on my blog. It’s hard not to “bite” back… but I haven’t and I won’t. It’s not worth it.
Thanks for your beautiful posts! I always look forward to them!
March 8, 2012 at 12:51 pm
Being a ‘what-if’er’ for most of my life, a worrier as if that were my job, it took two sentences from a very beautiful man to change me. To give me armor to beat back the fear and the worry. To stop me in my tracks and make me see bigger things – that can be good and true and amazing. He said:
How many times have the things you’ve ‘what-if’d’ come true exactly as you thought they would? What if it doesn’t go exactly that way and instead, something wonderful happens?
Is it ever as bad as we imagine it will be? Isn’t it usually so much better and softer than we thought? And surprising – because we were so sure it would be awful, but then it’s not.
Yes, I ended up marrying him.
March 8, 2012 at 1:02 pm
For me, I know that it is usually (always) when I spin myself up, rather than remain calm and trust in the natural process(es) of thing(s), when my thoughts and emotions begin to take control over my days in a negative and irrational way. Our cognitive ability to retrieve and/or devise fear is absolutely uncanny, and often it takes another person, someone totally objective to our own thoughts, to show us a mirror and say, “it’s okay.”
He sounds like a remarkable human being, much like you do. 🙂
March 8, 2012 at 3:11 pm
That picture of the kids watching the snow fall makes me smile and feel cozy. Thanks for sharing a beautiful moment with us!
March 8, 2012 at 3:57 pm
Cannot help but think of Eckhart Tolle’s Stillness Speaks or The Power of Now when you asked for comments on the beauty of now. It is so easy to get caught up in worrying about the future, totally losing what is right in front of you in the present. My mantra is now “Still” – I think of this word all the time, as it forces me to slow down and live in the moment. Thanks for your lovely post.
March 8, 2012 at 7:30 pm
Your so brave to embrace everything and follow your heart. I keep saying I’ll be like that someday soon. But a little something inside holds me back. A combination of reasons I guess. It’s funny though how I attract myself to those who are like you. I hope by surrounding myself that one day I will blossom. that’s a reason I love your blog. It’s like the me I hope to someday be. It’s inspiring. I hope carma brings you as many blessings as you bring us!
March 8, 2012 at 7:30 pm
As always, thank you for being here, for showing up right now.
March 9, 2012 at 9:05 am
i certainly needed that reminder to follow the joy and call of my heart… it’s much easier said than done, but each day i’m trying to listen more closely to what it’s silently trying to tell me.
your words are beautiful xo