how do you say?

July 2, 2008

How do you say you’ve had a very rough 6 months….no one wants to hear crisis talk for that long and you aren’t sure you want to vomit about it either. …but then you look back on your blog and realize you’ve only been writing about the dreamy/hopeful experiences that have gotten you through. This makes it appear that you live in a veritable fairy land…when actually, you are hopelessly flawed which requires you to stand in a state of grace/kindness ALL the time…

and then you are thankful….for the tiny bit of magic in your family, that you are just trying to find your way like everyone else, that you are WAY too intense, that this thing called kindness follows you around, that everyday you will find new ways to tell the whole story, that you are kind of a mess, that in the end, this is your small gift to the world…

4 Responses to “how do you say?”

  1. nikole Says:

    I hope you can trust that there are many who want to listen, who welcome the opportunity to to embrace all of the chapters of your story – even the messy ones. Coming back to gratitude is a powerful thing, but I hope you can give yourself permission to share the difficult things as well. Sending you love and light.

  2. Kristin Says:

    This IS your gift to the world – the blueberry goodwill and intensity and moments of crisis, followed by magic and hope and love. You are a strong and brave woman. Know that we all walk similar paths, side by side. love, Kristin

  3. Anne S Says:

    oh dear girl, life is good but life is also very hard. It is good to put those fairy land times down in print, for the very times when you need to be reminded of them most. The love and support you need is there, you just need to look into the depths of the eyes of your dear friends and communicate such. We are human, not perfect, and all of us struggle with these conflicting feelings along our path, towards our future. You are liked and loved. Thank you for being part of my life in ALL of your humaness. Love Anne

  4. Win Says:

    And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” – Romans 8:28

    And P, you are definitely one of those “things”!

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