he’s proud, she’s making me crazy and somehow small is in our hearts…

June 4, 2008

1. It still baffles me after 16 years of being with someone, there is still more to discover…I kind of hope it never ends.

I don’t think I have ever mentioned it here, but I have my babies at home (that means no drugs). I love and chose this way for a lot of reasons but mostly because of the level of care I have received. I thought Jorge thought this was just the way we do things and not something special. Apparently, he is proud- of me, this way, the birthing process in general. Who knew? Good information to have after 3 kids.

2. Last week Lucy made me crazy, dumbfounded actually, no, maybe just tired. What do I do with her? or not do? The further I get in parenting the more I feel have no idea what the hell I’m doing. I’ve been making some huge discoveries lately, I’m seeing stark differences that are new (or at least to me) in my kids. It could just be new development but it has me mildly obsessing.

I feel slightly humbled as I thought I had a handle and natural inclination on this parenting thing. It’s sad and good at the same time. Sad, realizing we might not have as much as common as I thought and have to find a new way to be. Good, as they are teaching me new things about themselves, me and the beauty of differences at the same time.

3. Small is definitely our speed. This little house feels more like home than the last 2 and more like our beloved old green house. I get this weird satisfaction from making it work. Cozy is good and it helps to have the coolest neighbors.

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2 Responses to “he’s proud, she’s making me crazy and somehow small is in our hearts…”

  1. Anne S Says:

    Isn’t it wonderful that life and love still holds surprises after all this time! Oh, homebirth, what a wonderful way to come into this world. I totally recommend it when all is well. Girls, girls, we can be complicated. Thank goodness for the thousands of parenting/help books out there to help remind us that we are not alone in our doubts, our great ideas, our philosophies of parenting. Even if we never read five of them, just the sheer number of them is comforting. I am so happy to hear that you feel “home”. Don’t they say the best things come in small packages 🙂

  2. Ann Says:

    Right back at ya! The neighborhood is a sunnier place seeing you and your crew walking down the street!


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