what do you want?

February 25, 2011

It was a simple question she asked, one I have been struggling with for quite some time. Well, like forever actually.

What do you want?

and the words flowed out, I didn’t think, I just typed.

I want to fuel and think of innovative kindness ideas, market them beautifully, and inspire people to believe in the power of kindness….I want to always be moving, changing, holding tight to humanity.

(and I want to do all that with the people I love)

“Oh My God, I think I just gave a Miss America answer, but I don’t even really care because it’s the truth!”…I wrote back.

And this week, while in the flow of planning, scheming, creating, crafting the next thing, it’s exactly how I feel. In this flow there is such joy, such happiness and all that really matters is so big I can’t see anything else…I can’t see my own self doubt, my fears, my shame, angst or even my intensity. The kindness is so big, not even I can stand or get in the way. It’s so blissful and how it should always be  I guess.

Even in my emotional ADHD, I am finding new answers, new buds are popping up, just letting the nature of this unfold, letting beauty come…opening myself to let it be. unafraid.

If you couldn’t think, process, mull over and I asked you

What do you want?

….what would you say?